CONTACT POST.

[secondnature]

username: keith

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[followhim]

i'm not planning on leaving her alone, but good luck with the kylo ren stuff. she's not gonna budge on that.

[secondnature]

You know he's still dangerous, right?

[followhim]

what did he do???

[secondnature]

Look, just trust me on it.

[followhim]

seriously? you can't just say something like that!

[secondnature]

It's not like anyone loses their powers.

[followhim]

did he do something? because he did something to me the first karking day we ran into each other, and i've been trying to give him the benefit of a doubt.

[secondnature]

What did he do?

[followhim]

he read my mind. and not in the nice friendly way i guess he and rey are capable of, the way that hurts. it probably doesn't sound like much, but it was a lot.

[secondnature]

How does it feel?

[followhim]

it's like this drilling pressure. he gets in and he takes whatever he wants, doesn't matter how much you wanna keep to yourself. you can't do anything. it's like being ripped apart without being able to do anything to stop it.

this time it was only for a few seconds, but the first time was bad enough that it dug all that back up. and it was over barely anything. he did it just because he could.

[secondnature]

Did you do anything to make Rey think you'd think she'd do that, or was it just all in Kylo Ren's public announcement?

[followhim]

when we talked in person, i was mad about it and she got really defensive. she probably did think that, but i was so caught up in my own side of things, i wasn't thinking about how it sounded to her. i apologized, but that's what happened.

[secondnature]

She thinks she's alone. That what power she has makes her alone. Does Finn know that?

[followhim]

i think so? finn is the one who talked to her after that whole thing. he's the one who smoothed things over.

[secondnature]

I just don't get why she thinks that. Not really.

[followhim]

i dunno, either. i think you're right, though. she's using her powers as a reason to not trust anyone. besides kylo ren, apparently, because he's like her. and it doesn't matter what we say, she's just gonna keep thinking that until she doesn't want to think it anymore.

and don't think i didn't notice you changed the subject.

[secondnature]

We're still talking about Kylo Ren.

Do you know a lot about the Force?

[followhim]

i know enough. maybe i don't have it myself, but i grew up on stories about it.

[do you want to hear about the force tree in his yard. spoilers: you probably don't.]

[secondnature]

We have something like it back home. But it's more tangible. It's in everything, but no one is particularly sensitive. I don't think anyway.

Here's the thing. I know what it's like to be different. To push others away because you feel it inside.

But it doesn't help anyone to do that.

[followhim]

i've felt like i had to push others away before. i think everyone feels like that sometimes, when they're upset or scared or working through something heavy. but that's ... i don't know. it's really lonely if you're that way all the time. we're never as strong as we are when we're working together with other people. especially if you've got people you can trust to support you no matter what. i had that.

to cut yourself off completely from the possibility of that is pretty sad, if you ask me.

[secondnature]

You didn't grow up alone, right?

[followhim]

no.

you think rey has trouble trusting people because of how she grew up? yeah... that makes sense.

[secondnature]

Well. That.

And Rey has a hard time having this many people involved.

Especially when what she's doing is confusing.

I struggled the same way when I got here. But Rey is better at people than I'll ever be. It might just be a problem now.

[followhim]

is there anything else we can do for her, do you think? besides hanging around while she goes off doing who knows what? because if there's something more i could do, i'd do it, but i'm not seeing the options.